I Don't Get It!

John 14:7-14

Jesus said to his disciples: "If you know me, then you will also know my Father. From now on you do know him and have seen him." Philip said to Jesus, "Master, show us the Father, and that will be enough for us." Jesus said to him, "Have I been with you for so long a time and you still do not know me, Philip? Whoever has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, 'Show us the Father'? Do you not believe that I am in the Father and the Father is in me? The words that I speak to you I do not speak on my own. The Father who dwells in me is doing his works. Believe me that I am in the Father and the Father is in me, or else, believe because of the works themselves. Amen, amen, I say to you, whoever believes in me will do the works that I do, and will do greater ones than these, because I am going to the Father. And whatever you ask in my name, I will do, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything of me in my name, I will do it."

Sometimes I just don't get things. I've been working on a new record which is almost done, but there are times when I am writing a song and that

chord I want to play I just can't play. My hand doesn't want to stretch that way. It's frustrating because obviously it's playable because others have done it to the point that they have documented the chord and put in a book right? So what do I do? Well I could give up and find a chord that I can play, sometimes I do that, or I could keep trying to play that difficult chord. It all depends on the situation at hand. Being that I mostly work solo know and I am unsigned I have all the time in the world and it's really only my ego that holds me back. I may move on in the short term, but I do try and go back. Why? Well, one I am stubborn, and two I want to become better.

The same goes with my spiritual life. Sometimes I hit an idea and I just don't get it. I know that it has to make sense, so I will read on, but I will also go back and study the issue. Personally I grew up in a variety of Christian churches, and after some time and a spiritual revival of sorts I became Catholic. I won't go into why now and I hope my Catholicism doesn't put you off, but because I am catholic I have a great number of resources that I can turn to to find the answers that I am looking for. Maybe you're thinking, "well I'm not Catholic so what do I do?" Well this is the fun part, sometimes I think God uses these moments to help us connect with others. I would say talk to you pastor. Maybe God wants you to talk with your pastor about this (or someone else) to open a dialog for some other greater good. Sure you could just hunker down with your Bible and pray over it, and trust me there is an abundance of good that comes out of that too, but I think sometimes God let's us "not get" stuff so that he can use it for a greater mission. I would suggest praying on that as well. I love prayer, it's one of my favorite things (Sound of Music popping in my head here). So much has come to me through prayer. Point is, I really feel Phillip here, but I am also inspired because Jesus was loving and walked him through it, and that is humbling because when I am around those that "don't get it" I am reminded to love like Jesus and lovingly walk them through what they need help with.

Jesus,

Thank you, you know that I can be pretty thick sometimes and there is much that I don't understand, yet you are patient with me. Help me to be patient with others but to also be patient with you so that I don't give up on learning. Help me to use my talents and to always look to use them better and to become stronger with them. I know I have a mission on this earth, I don't quite get it completely yet, but I don't want to give up and let you down. Thanks for everything, you're awesome!

In Jesus Christ's name I pray,

Amen