Jesus, I'm Scratching My Head Here...

Matthew 1:16, 18-21, 24a

Jacob was the father of Joseph, the husband of Mary. Of her was born Jesus who is called the Christ. Now this is how the birth of Jesus Christ came about. When his mother Mary was betrothed to Joseph,

but before they lived together, she was found with child through the Holy Spirit. Joseph her husband, since he was a righteous man, yet unwilling to expose her to shame, decided to divorce her quietly. Such was his intention when, behold, the angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said, "Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary your wife into your home. For it is through the Holy Spirit that this child has been conceived in her. She will bear a son and you are to name him Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins." When Joseph awoke, he did as the angel of the Lord had commanded him and took his wife into his home.

I don't know how Joseph felt, but right now I kinda feel like how I think Joseph would feel. I've been working on a new record. I was planning for 10 tracks and I have 7 done and all of a sudden things have come to a grinding halt. Not necessarily writers block, but I just can't seem to get anything done. I think I know what my life is supposed to be doing right now but like Joseph God has thrown me a curve ball. Will I finish the record? Yeah, I think so, but when? I'm the kind of guy that when I get stuck in slow traffic I think God is trying to slow me down and spend some time with me. I know some people would disagree, but I believe that EVERYTHING that happens to me is either a desire of God or that he allows things to happen to me for a greater good. So my thought is, "God I love you. What's the message here? What are you trying to teach me?" Joseph could have done a ton of things. Technically, unless I am wrong, Mary could have been stoned to death for getting pregnant outside of marriage through adultery. I am glad he listened to that angel. Joseph decided to love in the hardest experience imaginable for a man. So I gotta love my way through this too. I'm excited about the new music. It's going to be a lot more rock. Drawing on some of my alt/punk influences and I can't wait to finish it and share the new music, but I guess it's time to slow down. God has something he wants me to learn first I think.

Jesus,

I love you and trust you. I don't know what's going on right now, but when I read about your step-dad Joseph, well I want to be like him. I want to love, even when it's not the easy thing to do. Help me to be patient to day. Help me to hear you. Help me to love like you. This world and life is so amazing. I am so thankful that I have this life. I want to make the most of it. I trust you Jesus. You're my man. You're my coach. Your servant is listening.

In Jesus Christ's name I pray,

Amen